Yeah, I didn’t remember it either. It was back when I quit the “write a novel in a month thing” and decided I was going to do the “blog everyday for a month” thing, which I also quit. Which, if you know me, isn’t a surprise. I have all sorts of awesome plans in my mind that I never actually fulfill, BUT that’s a whole different blog post.
You know what I did like about one of those posts back in November? I liked this:
I want this space to be a place of acceptance, self-care, fun, laughter, creativity, and most of all self-exploration.
You see, this blog is good for me. And I need to remember that sentence up there and come here even when I’m in a dark and scary spot. Because the last few months have been
a bit really dark and scary. (Don’t worry though¹. I’m “okay” even if I’m “not okay”.) Sure, I’ve written about The Deep Dark Hole before, but that was more situational than my general depression. Right now my general depression is kicking my ass. And because of brave people like:
- My friend AM~Erica Says So, who continues to write about her struggles and has become such an activist for mental health
- Wentworth Miller, who opened up about his depression when he stumbled upon a body shaming meme written about him.
- And today a good friend on Facebook shared a post Taylor Jones wrote for The Mighty called When You’re in the Grey Area of Being Suicidal
I am finding myself drawn to being more public about my struggles. It’s a scary thought. Being open with the world about how my mind struggles, even on the best of best days. I mean, some people who know me might not actually know just how much my mind struggles. I don’t want to scare them. But I need to remember, that this place here is good for me. Not just the good and fun times, but also the dark and scary times, right?
¹Plus, I’m interviewing a new therapist today. That should be fun?